I have discovered one more thing to add to my wish list:
He must be able to live within the quiet spaces of my life.
One of the things I prayed about when I was pregnant with my first child was that my child be able to understand I DO love him even when I'm quiet. I also prayed that He, in His infinite wisdom, would show me the times when words were necessary and to give me those words.
I'm going to hand this one over to Him as well.
I'm not so sure that my current friend is comfortable in my silence.
Yesterday, we went for a walk through the park. It was okay. There were moments of silence. He would usually fill the void. The time before this one, he accused me of not talking much. Mostly, this is true.
Sometimes, if I have something worth saying, I'll say it.
I will work on communicating my thoughts more often. I admit that I don't like it when the person I'm with appears closed off. Maybe I can let my body talk for me when I don't fill like "chattering". Perhaps, I can put my arm through his, or I can wrap my arms around him. Something that says, "Hey. I'm here with you, and I'm enjoying your company."
Wow, what an epiphany!
Clearing throat. Tapping mic... Is this thing on? Mic check...one,two… Okay. Here we go. Taking large step on faith. This introvert is taking her act out on the road. People with different perspectives are welcome. We can respectfully disagree when differing opinions happen. I've trolled (is that the right word?) lots of virtual spaces and cringed at the thoughtless bullying behavior by those who safely hide behind the anonymity that social sites allow. Hopefully, this will not be THAT place.
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